Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Realization

Some things have just hit me

In less then 5 months I will have finished school for good and then my actual life starts
Quite scary. What I am really dreading is leaving all the people I know at school behind. I mean. This year I have gotten to know basically everyone in my year level and I'm going to miss talking to them

What really is scary me, is that If I do not get the score I need I will be stuck with a career choice and I do not want to spend the rest of my life working at a job like KFC. NO THANKYOU!

I think this year has been a blast and I really don't want it to end yet. I am having to much fun and have been meeting a lot of GREAT people who I do not want to lose contact with.

Next Year I will be 18 and that is I guess where the REAL fun will hit me but I'm kind of scared as well seeing I have more responsibility. I really do miss the old days where all I had to worry about is what colour crayon I would use and that.

Lately I have been feeling down and I do NOT know why. Is it because I feel like I have been lied to many many times or that I really don't feel like I am loved anymore? WHO KNOWS!!

I just want a life where I can say I am ALWAYS Happy and that. But wishing won't really do anything. Just like in Airplanes

"Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky like shooting star, I could really use a wish right now, a wish right now"

I really wish that I could just open up and tell someone that I want them. But like always I never have the guts to do it. If only I could. But I don't think they want me, so why even bother I say.

Saturday, July 24, 2010

I Need You!


All I Need Is You!

You make me SMILE, You make me LAUGH, You make me feel GOOD about myself and overall you are just an AMAZING PERSON!

Say the word and your MINE!.


Friday, July 16, 2010

My Special People ♥

My Special People'
I
have moved schools, house, towns and along the way I have met so many new people

My regret: I seem to always lose contact with people. Why? Is it because it's me? Is it because they don't wanna be friends with me or is it my fault? Maybe I need to try harder but when I do they don't put the effort into it.

Grade 1 -4..Met two friends who I said I would always be good friends with and what happens. Have not spoken to them since :/

Grade 5-6. Same thing and same outcome

I am happy with the people who I am with today. My friends mean a lot to me and all and I would ever hate to lose contact with them

But the future does scare me. We all will meet new people along the way but I hope we never lose the contact we have. I will to meet new people but I do want to keep the special people with me.

I have even met a couple people online, like Twitter and Myspace and I hope I don't lose contact with them. Yes, I may have met them there but I still think of them as friends.

Family and Friends are EVERYTHING to me, and Well that will never change. I LOVE THEM ALL ♥